Where do I go from here

Where do i go from here
no place anywhere
the world around me seems to shrink
and brings my fears upto the brink
fears of nothing that is unearthly
nor of things that are heavenly.
fears that seem to choke me
fears that evoke me
to become someonei dont know
and a person whom
i wont know.
It is this me that i fear
and this person whom i shouldnt hear
i know this phase of my life would end
and would bring out the real me
who maybe would be a friend
the death of this present me,i would not hate
but it wont be something, that i would celebrate
because , afterall
this persons only fault was
that he was an emotional fool
in a practical world where so many practicals drool.
for once in his life he thought this way
and found
that love was something he wont ever give away
not to the so called loved but practical people
not to a person who have parameters and points to measure
who love second but first calculate
who are practical enough and immaculcate
i know this emotional fool is dying
and the person inside me is crying
telling me i shouldnt hate
and its not something that i should celebrate
where do i go from here
it is not yet clear..

Apoorve