Money..Is it a product or a by product?

Money..one of the things that most of us think most about...And being a rational and a logical human being, there seems nothing wrong in it. We devote a good part of our life working ... and the need to work , though intellectuals might disagree , stems with the very first need to be self sufficient as an individual - to be independent and to be earning. How we might want to earn can though be a matter of choice.

So answering the question that I have often asked myself..what does money mean to me...to me money is a by product - A by product of what I do , and how I perform . I work for more things than money from job satisfaction to learning to growth - but the measure of success that I have for myself is the final end product - the pay cheque that I draw.

If one is useful to his organization and brings profit to the organization, the relationship should as well be profitable for the employee. And I firmly believe , that organizations let people stay if and only if they are profitable.No organization works for the people..they work for profits.

So returning back to the original thought , life is all about learning but the learning needs to be supported with growth in career and the growth should translate into a better quality of life and money , which is the end by product of all the permutations and combinations of efforts that one puts in..One should not want to keep doing a good or a great job and still remain at the same level as he/she is currently in...A bad feedback and therefore a worse compensation is better than a great job pat but the same pay cheque. If its the former , one has an option to improve or to search for alternate pathways if in case one disagrees..but with the latter,one is left wondering if its really a beautiful life or a life which is being made to look beautiful.

Life

Life has its own ups and downs...the ups would almost always seem very obvious while the downs seem to be the harshest sentence that god could pronounce to anyone ...however , if we think about it all in the hind sight, these things are not at all worthy of anything else but a mere passe in the life.

I am seeing my son growing by the day everyday and whenever I see him play , I wish I could get even a pinch of the intensity of happiness that he showers when he smiles. To him , nothing in the world matters , he is not afraid of any earthy thing and no worry of future can even touch him. People spend lifetimes in trying to know what shanti and ultimate happiness is all about - to all those I would say , spend a week with an infant and you would know what it is..although what is a different matter altogether is to try and replicate it in your own life.I wish I could do it for a single day..

Oh me...

A song from Nirvana...Oh me..is supposedly a philosophical and biblical verse..Think how it makes you feel..Here are the lyrics..

If I had to lose a mile
If I had to touch feelings
I would lose my soul
The way I do
I dont have to think
I only have to do it
The results are always perfect
And thats old news
Would you like to hear my voice
Sweetened with emotion
Invented at your birth?
I cant see the end of me
My whole expanse I cannot see
I formulate infinity
And store it deep inside of me.

Darling.. save the last dance for me...

This is what I have been telling life all along my life...I want to save the most joyous moments - the dificulty lies in identifying those moments which I would like to cherish...

Maybe its the smallest joys of life that matter and those are the ones that I would save for myself forever .So I think getting my first bicycle from dad brought me more joy than buying my own car...I can somehow not feel the same happiness that I got on getting a cycle.. to explain this in all practicality amongst all the practical people might be a waste...but I am sure somewhere out there ..there are people who have experienced this ..I hope I am not the only one...

I have always imagined living in a small cottage ..in the most serene enviroment, amidst hills , infront of river ..with maybe the very basic amenities required..and that I would always want my last dance to be..

Live life King size

The world aint all sunshine and rainbows..its a very mean and nasty place and it doesnt care how tough you are..it will beat you to your knees.And keep you there permanently if you let it,you me or nobody is going to hit as hard as life ,But it ain't about how hard you hit its about how hard u can get hit and keep moving forward , how much u can take and keep moving forward.. thats how it is done.Now if u know what's your worth than go out and get what's ur worth but you gotta be ready to take the hits and not pointing fingers saying you aint wht you wanna be because of him or her or any body..cowards do that and that aint you!!!. You are better than that.



-----This is for all those who think it is the others stopping them to move ahead and take decisions ,its the fear inside which is stopping them in taking their decisions.

Mood of the day

When this began
I had nothing to say
And I get lost in the nothingness inside of me
I was confused
And I let it all out to find
That I’m not the only person with these things in mind
But all the vacancy the words revealed
Is the only real thing that I’ve got left to feel Nothing to lose
Just stuck/ hollow and alone
And the fault is my own,
I wanna heal,
I wanna feel what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I’ve held so long
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m close to something real
I wanna find something I’ve wanted all along
Somewhere I belong
And I’ve got nothing to say
I can’t believe I didn’t fall right down on my face
I was confused
Looking everywhere only to find
That it’s not the way I had imagined it all in my mind
So what am I
What do I have but negativity
’Cause I can’t justify the way, everyone is looking at me
Nothing to lose Nothing to gain/ hollow and alone
And the fault is my own

Where do I go from here

Where do i go from here
no place anywhere
the world around me seems to shrink
and brings my fears upto the brink
fears of nothing that is unearthly
nor of things that are heavenly.
fears that seem to choke me
fears that evoke me
to become someonei dont know
and a person whom
i wont know.
It is this me that i fear
and this person whom i shouldnt hear
i know this phase of my life would end
and would bring out the real me
who maybe would be a friend
the death of this present me,i would not hate
but it wont be something, that i would celebrate
because , afterall
this persons only fault was
that he was an emotional fool
in a practical world where so many practicals drool.
for once in his life he thought this way
and found
that love was something he wont ever give away
not to the so called loved but practical people
not to a person who have parameters and points to measure
who love second but first calculate
who are practical enough and immaculcate
i know this emotional fool is dying
and the person inside me is crying
telling me i shouldnt hate
and its not something that i should celebrate
where do i go from here
it is not yet clear..

Apoorve